You've lost it

Ha Ha, Cute conversation you seems to be having.

I see you across the park trying to schmooze some poor girl. Shes cute and thats what she did wrong this morning. She got up and made herself look attractive and you, you creep has to go over there and creep on her.

Even cuter, she's trying not to be mean!

Your really putting the moves on her now, sitting close, trying to get so close you just might touch. She just nicely wiggles aways even giggling at your pathetic jokes.

Your cute thats your problem. Your one of those. Those that knows they are cute. Completely aware, your the type that wakes up every morning and loves the reflection. I'd like to blame it on high school. All the girls wanted it and only the loose ones got it. Now you got that chip; chip'n away on your sholder.

Oh, look shes gone. She actually got up and walked away. Great now here you come my way. I'll just eat my sandwhich.

"What happened there?"
"Not sure. Peanut butter and jelly?"
"mmmhhmmmmm."
" It was going fine, then she got up and walked away."
"Its cause your a creep."
"What?"
"Stop trying to touch them, you might get a little further."




Song to download; I will follow you into the dark by death cab for cutie


(only cause its kinda a creeper song)

Hear Me Out

It's sad your with her. You and I both know that, I see it in your eyes everytime you look into mine. You and I aren't a possibility, but you and her aren't suppose to be. Let it go.




Song to download; Here me out by Frou Frou

She Cries

the sky begins to cry

cries cries cries

sly whimper

the thunder shakes the night

the moon peaks from its hazen jail

its glow sends a mist of ray across the forest

squeezing its last ray out, its shut back in

the clouds, you can see

grey grey grey

diamond stars punch through

and it rains

rains rains rains

the sky is leaking

and no one fights it

we demand it

so she cries

shes letting go

letting go

lettin go

let go

everybody sees

everybody hears

nobody stops

we need her to cries

we want her cries

so she cries

Song to download; One Headlight by The Wallflowers

Vibrant

I'm running down the road.
I'm running faster and faster.
I'm naked.
I trip.
I fall forward without my feet leaving the ground.
I never land.
I fall into a pool or cool mist.
I'm engulfed.
I emerge and keep running.
Running
Running
Running
Then I stop.
Dead in my tracks.
I have my breath.
I feel vibrant.
I'm still naked.
I reach my hands up into the musk glow that surrounds me.
I scream.
Not a bad scream.
Not a good scream.
I just scream.
My lungs.
My lungs feel.
My lungs feel.
They feel feel feel.
My body tingles.
I fall backwards.
I'm caught by a web of mist.
I awake.
I'm in my bed.
I'm awake.
In my bed.

Song to download; Spazz by NERD

Just a little more

I don't know what your looking for, what your searching for, but your not gonna find it. At least not yet, your not ready for it. You must open your mind a little more.




Song to download; Space between by DMB

I Forgot Something, But Never went back

I push the door open, it makes one of those damn bell noises that kinda irritate you but at the same point kinda makes you giggle. It swings fast as I release it behind me and the door shuts quietly, as if i was never there.

One step

Two step

Concrete

I look around at the small bleak downtown. The cool dry air rushes to my face and carries the smell of Chinese and cigarettes with just a hint of stale beer. Music pumps from the gay bars and taverns meeting in the middle and begin to dance to their own mix in the air around me, the drunken laughter and clomping of heals on the cobble road add even more of a unique sound and style to the simple calm Thursday night.

I spot my car and keep my pace.. but my mind doesn't seem to have one. My mind is like a run away train, you never know where it's going or where it's gonna stop. But at this point I know where it's at, it's back there in that store. I couldn't forget his face if I tried, but I wouldn't be able to even describe it to you even if I wanted to. It's one of those, he's one of those.

Standing next to the drivers side door I begin to ransack through my purse in search for the jingle of too much metal. As I feel them, my body pulses and my attention is turned back to that little store. My mind goes blank and I have no actual thought.

One step

Two step

My hand wraps around the cold metal handle and I pull the door open sounding the bell to announce my return.

He looks at me, "I thought you had to be home?"

"I do, but I forgot.. come here"

Giving me a look he gets down from the counter hes sitting on and begins to slowly wonder my direction.

"why do I have to walk all the way over here, wha'd you forget?"

He's getting closer and I just smile and start walking to meet him faster. There's only a mere foot between us, I grab his shirt and pull him closer and look him straight in the eyes. I can't feel anything except my heart pounding..

harder

harder

harder

As soon as our lips touch, the walls fall down, the floor doesn't exist. His fingertips touch my cheek very slightly, and his other hand lands on the arch of my back, he holds me. The kiss seems to last forever but I know it was only a few seconds. He releases me and I walk slowly backwards, not one word is said, but his expression says everything. I just send him a smile and turn just as I push the door open behind me with the bell once again sounding but this time to anounce my departure.

I meet the stairs once more

one step

two step

concrete

...reality

I'm back standing next to my car with the jingle of too much metal held in my hand and I'm just starring at the little shop. I put my key into the door.

unlock

open

sit

close

I start up the engine as it roars on the lights beam out, I dig for my cigarettes and spark the flame to ignite the chemical creation. My heart still pounding, I pull out from my parking spot and cruise down the road. As I drive past the shop there he is, sitting on the counter top. I keep my car straight and head home.

I missed my chance, and I'm gonna be late for curfew.

Song to download; Head Over feet by Alanis Morisette

Ironic

I don't really know what I was expecting.. but I didn't want it to be that. Me just standing there starring into his shit brown eyes.. the light catching them everytime and igniting a honey warm gold around the pupil. Such a damn ass, but yet not even close. I basicly just like to say that to make things seem... understandable? I guess that word assocation works.

I didn't really know what was going to happen after that first night. Laying there smoking a cig, half naked at the foot of his bed. But then here I am, looking at him and its not what I thought, but then again theres always that chance I'm digging. Its what I do, I dig and make excuses. Then again, he was at work. What, was he just suppose to jump me there and be all "i want you baby, yea" Get real John Travolta, this aint no Grease. If I wanted that shit i'd have stuck with the last loser. BLah, gag me.

Its funny, I either find the ones that show no reaction or at least not the one I'm looking for or the ones that cry and call me baby. I wasn't in dirty dancing thats not ma name hunny. Is it really that hard to find someone that goes straight to short sweet and the point? I mean as bloodhound gang would say I don't wonna beat around the bush, but this time its not in a dirty context.

I guess thats just one of those things.

"Its like walking barefoot and stepping in a mud puddle.

You wonna be mad,

but you can't do anything but laugh,

cause its just so damn ironic."

It's Ironic

It's the story of my life

sum'd up in one word.

Now thats Ironic!

Song to Download; Ironic by Alanis Morisette